6 weeks

This week hasn't been much different from the last. Still some slight cramping and I'm just really tired all I want to do is sleep as long as I can. This week started my Nauseous which is oh so great. Friday it kicked in and we had my younger sisters Graduation and that was one of the worst feelings in the world to sit through it praying I wasn't going to puke all over the people in front of us. K kept telling me we're almost done and that it's going to be fine.
I feel great most days but then some times It's just horrible but it's usually at night so I can at least just lay down and relax and not have to worry. Our Dr.'s Appointment is in 3 weeks and I can't wait. It seems like forever away and it's never going to get here. We can't wait to see the U/S and hear the HB.

K said my mood is all over the board and he just stays quiet as long as he can. Hopefully we'll get through this soon and won't have much to worry about. 5 more weeks and we're out of the dark and we can tell anyone and everyone!

5 Weeks

So... It's been a ok week. I'm not nauseous yet which is really great. I'm tired all the time and the cramping is ok to deal with. I can't complain to much yet. I'm hungry every two hours and when I am hungry I don't eat to much. I'm really trying hard to eat small meals every 2-3 hours.
I talked to my mom this morning and she said she was never sick with any of us which is wonderful news so hopefully the sayings will stay true and I will be like my mom and not get sick. One could only hope!
Other then freaking out and worrying about losing the baby we're doing great. Kevin cleaned out the garage which means I can start cleaning out the spare room and figure out what we can get rid of and what we're going to keep and move into the garage.
This week Baby R is the size of a Sesame Seed. The Heart starts to beat and the baby will develop a spine. Only a few more week till our first appointment! I can't wait.

Our Wonderful Surprise!

So I haven't been feeling the greatest lately at all. A week ago K drank a Yellow Vitamin Water and I thought I was going to lose my lunch. So I had an Idea that something was up. I've been really moody and K was at the end of the rope I could tell. So Friday Morning I looked at the PG test and was debating on if I wanted another month of disappointment and I just told myself to do it because of Monday being Memorial Day. So I did it and I brushed my teeth and just happened to look over and Couldn't believe it there were two lines. I was in Shocked
I ran into the bedroom shaking and just couldn't believe it I through the test at K (yes through it HAHA)He through it back at me and then I woke him up and told him to read it. He looked and me and said your Pg and went back to sleep....
I let it go and just couldn't believe what just happened. I was so happy.

So Friday night we told his Mom and Dad we gave Kevin's mom a book that said Worlds Best Grandma on the front she was so happy she was jumping and yelling I'm going to be a grandma!!!

Saturday we planned on Driving down and meet my parents and sister and brother for dinner. So we ordered and I gave my mom the book she looked at it for a long time and I told her to go to the second page. So she finally read it. To Grandma Patty From your little Peanut EDD January 27th 2010. She instantly started crying and Ran and hugged us both. She just couldn't believe it she's just so thrilled and so everyone else.

Our Grandparents are really excited to be Great Grandparents and so are our siblings. They can't wait to be Aunts and uncles.

So here's the start to our long road to meet out precious Peanut So here's the the next 8 months!!

A Year Ago...

It's just crazy I never thought I would be sitting here a year later in a new house, still loving my husband more then anything then life it's self. We've gone through so much together this past year. Family struggles and battles, losing my job, moving out to Hartland, becoming an Property Manager, successfully throwing my In Laws a surprise party. We've accomplished so much together. Even though we have our arguments I still love K more then anything I just never thought I would be married and on a path to having our first child.
It's so crazy to think this time last year I was fine tuning all our last minute wedding plans and making sure everything was perfect. Now this year I'm ordering our Anniversary Cake and planning our weekend away for our 1 year Anniversary.
K is so amazing and shows me he loves me all the time. He deals with my moods with all the meds I'm taking and helps me get through the rough times. He makes time for me even though he's gone a lot, and is tired from traveling. He's so good to me and works so hard to do things for me and make our life great together. He means the world to me and I don't know where I would be without him.
I can't wait to start another year together and start new beginnings and new journeys and travels together. Hopefully we will start our family this year. K will do even better in his job that he loves, I'll love the new family I'm starting for in September and everything else will go great.

Just a reflection but I just can't believe it.

What a Week

It's been a rough week with K gone I've never been this lonely when he was gone. For some reason this week I felt like a single and that I wasn't whole. He's going to be gone a lot again I think I got so use to him just being home all the time it was like starting all over again. But now he's home and all he wanted to do was sleep because he believe slept all was and of course I was pissed about it and he didn't seem to care. When he did get up he was pissed that I woke him up which in turn, turned in to a fight about why he doesn't want to spend time with me. So he stormed out of the house. I just went and laid in bed pissed off at him. He came in 10 mins later and hugged me which I told him doesn't make it ok. He said sorry and he should realize that I miss him when he's gone and the least he could have done was just lay in bed and watch movies with me. So we went to dinner and got Ice cream and then came home and watched movies. He apologized all night for being a ass. I like when he realizes what he's doing and feels bad because then he won't do it again.
Today I get to give him his V-Day gift which we usually don't do but he's been talking about how much his back hurts so I figured I would get him a Massage. He's going to be so excited!
Who knows what we're doing today nothing is set in stone yet but we'll see. I have tons of showings this morning with the Apartments and I'm really hoping to get them rented because then I'll get my Bonus for March.

Anniversary Party

So we had K's parents Anni party this weekend. It went very smoothly and I was so pleased with the turn out. Everyone kept telling me how sweet it was for me to do it and how great of a time they had. It made me feel really happy to have done it for them. They had such a great time and K's parents were so happy FIL was just in shock for about an hour haha. He just didn't know what to thing. I wasn't even sure if we were going to him there he was pitching a fit because we went going to have enough time to stop for a drink at the legion before dinner. I'm surprised he actually went HAHA. Over all it went smoothly and the food was great. It was fun to see everyone we hadn't seen since the wedding. Sunday K ended up getting the flu really back he couldn't even keep a cracker down. So when I just wanted to sit and relax and have some me time that couldn't happen because I was running around getting him something every half hour. But now he's gone for the week and I have a house to clean and laundry and bedding to wash. Hopefully next weekend will be quite HAHA probably not!

Life

I still don't have any leads on a job and I'm starting to get very faustrated. I feel like I've failed and I'm not going to bounce back. I know it' snot my fault but I feel that way. I feel like K is going to be let down if something doesn't happen. He's being so great about this all right now and not making a big deal about me not having something in line. He says everything will be ok but will it really? Who knows....
I'm pist because M didn't offer me at least two weeks paid even though she'll be getting unemployment and I can't. I'm so discouraged and I don't know what to do. I can't find a full time job because of that Apartment job I need something that I can still answer my work phone all day and that can't happen if I work in a day care or an office.
I'm to the point of asking my parents for a job and driving every day to Madison which is an hour away just so I can't have job security. I hate to use them as a fall back but I know they would trust that I'm reliable and I would be able to answer the phone for the apartments still. There are so many thoughts running through my head and I don't know what to do with them. When I try to talk about them they just don't come out correctly. K just tells me to keep on trucking along and we will all be ok.
But will we really?